Sometimes we give away our very own blessings, and when we lack we question God’s faithfulness.
Have you ever given away the very thing you believed and asked God for?
Have you ever had abundance (materially) in your life only to make it your mission to look for ways to spend and give it away?
With all honestly I thought this was only a curse in my lineage, but as I do what I know best, observe and listen! I am learning it’s an illness in all human beings.
Why is that though?
Have we taken words and circumstances out of context?
Are we “helping” from our wounds or scars?
Is it a lack of one knowing their worth and what their deserve?
Is it the lack of self awareness and lack of vision for self?
I sit down and reflect on the week that was, in my quiet time, The Holy Spirit and I developed a plan for the week, every dollar in my account had a purpose.
Along with that every hour in my week had an appointment titled purpose, that looked like work and rest.
In the mist of my productive purposeful week, questions of help and asks were serpents ready to distract me from this weeks assignment(s).
Just like our mother Eve, I entertained the serpent and ate the apples.
In the mist of eating the apples, I felt good and fulfilled as I thought and felt “I’ve helped someone”, “I’ve served”, “I’ve solved a problem”, “God gets the glory.”
Is a giving hand and a servant heart, a giving hand and a servant heart when it’s disobeyed God’s Will in that moment?